So next week i'l be heading to Laos, a pretty enclosed place i would say. Expectations for this mission trip? I havent really given a thought about it yet. Everything feels empty, currently everything is just so meaningless. This holiday feels like a waste of time- doing nothing, yet I do not know what to do.
Basically i'm filling myself through with books, but it just doesnt feel right. and i'm alr heading for mission. I am NOT suppose to feel this way. I really don't know what to think anymore.
I smile these few days, but there's nothing no joy no feeling inside me, and thats horrfying.
I used to feel something, but now it's just cold and hard inside.
I used to feel depress, sad, worried. now it's just pure emptyness.
Blank. God help me.
All i know is i have to stay strong, all I have left is my daddy God. Pointless living, I feel.
There's a story behind every person. There's a reason why they are the way they are. They aren't just like that because they want to.
It's not the goodbye that hurts, it's the flashback that follows.
Missing someone infinite, darn it hurts.
Basically i'm filling myself through with books, but it just doesnt feel right. and i'm alr heading for mission. I am NOT suppose to feel this way. I really don't know what to think anymore.
I smile these few days, but there's nothing no joy no feeling inside me, and thats horrfying.
I used to feel something, but now it's just cold and hard inside.
I used to feel depress, sad, worried. now it's just pure emptyness.
Blank. God help me.
All i know is i have to stay strong, all I have left is my daddy God. Pointless living, I feel.
There's a story behind every person. There's a reason why they are the way they are. They aren't just like that because they want to.
It's not the goodbye that hurts, it's the flashback that follows.
Missing someone infinite, darn it hurts.
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