The sense of belonging faded.

Where are you suppose to go when you no longer have any sense of belonging?
Maybe it's time for me to step out.
I don't find it building my character to become a better person and I don't find it deepening my foundation on the word of God.
Every week we gather, but not to pray to sharing words of substances, instead today we joked throughout cell group time and even talked about non-relevant stuff like clubbing, sisha? That's not how a cell group is suppose to be, if it's so. It has lost it's true meaning.
I've been hiding this for a long time but after today and attending cell group after a long time, Honestly, I feel underestimated, rejected and neglected. There is somehow a BIG barrier between so called 'leaders' and 'members' not everyone is acting so don't get me wrong. I do not want to blacklist the whole team because of a few black sheeps here and there. I feel that I'm not given the chance everyone is suppose to be given.
Maybe it's just me over-thinking all these stuff. But I think I no longer can grow in Teenz, It's rather pulling me down every week rather than building me up.
Alright, maybe it's just my mentality that is screwed up and wrong. But I have a strong feeling I will not grow if I continue to stay on.
That's why one side of me is grateful that I'll be heading up KL, of course it's for a new start in my education life. But more importantly for a whole fresh start in my church ministry.

God, guide me through. Show me the right ways, in thought and in action.