Failure. utter useless.

failed my organ exam& it's something like piano's grade6 only.
for the first time in my life, utter useless. they say failure is a stepping stone what crap, it's easier said than experiencing it.
Somehow everything I do, I can never excel. It's the same for music, studies, dance, sports, clubs, cbc serving, teaching everything. even arts, the only thing i'm better at, yet I suck soo sooo much. There are so many out there better than me and i'm merely just what? A tiny ant who's trying to get notice, i never succeed.
super sad when I got my results, I FREAKING SWEAR I WILL PASS THE NEXT TIME. i'm old i have no time to spare. God help me. please
Another resolution to add,

• practice my organ EVERYDAY.
  

Stupid homeworks, tuitions. scram

Please let this week be a more peaceful one.


I don't want to cry anymore.